Monday, December 15, 2008

I'm really bored... (make up for when I was absent for some doctor appointment)

In honor of how bored I am I'm going to ramble a bit, once again. I've just finished my cool writing presentation (took me 40 minutes, but who's counting?) and now I realized that I need three more blogs. But I have nothing to write about, I have nothing I care to talk about. There's nothing to say to anyone.

I could take the direction I've seen a multitude of times in these blogs where we simply restate the discussion in class, but that doesn't take brain power and if I'm going to waste my time with this I'll be damned if I don't use my brain on it. My mind keeps straying to the game I want to design, but I figure I'll get this grade first. I'm anxious over how my audition went for our school drama "The Last Days of Judas Iscariot", the show is going to be amazing be sure to make it. I'm excited because I get to skip most of wednesday to sing for the Blue Notes Holiday Tour (that's right, I've got a gorgeous voice). But through all this I have nothing to write on.

Why are most the blog posts I see just rewritten versions of things we discussed in class. I realize that these are supposed to be based off our class periods, but when I peruse your writings and find four posts that say almost word-for-word what we said in class, along with some creative differences to make the words "yours". I have to ask, how much are people actually thinking when they do these blogs?
Then I'll see a one paragraph entry that says "censorship sucks" with about the same grace as a drunk stumbling down the street. The craziest part of all this is that you all chose to be in this class, and the blog assignment was announced before the drop-out deadline. So we were all aware of what we'd have to do, and this class is an elective in the first place.
I guess this is an appeal really, as much as I've tried I can't ignore it when I see potential wasted. I should be able to look at those blogs and move on, but to see the brilliant minds of this class wasted because you can't be bothered to put yourself out there, to show the world how smart you really are, is terrifying.
Maybe that's it, that's the core of the issue. Fear. Maybe you're all afraid of what we'd say if you put an original thought out there, and there are some of you for whom this post does not apply. And to you I'm thankful. But those of you who do this know who you are, or you're telling yourself you're not. Because for the few that do think and do put down those thoughts are agreeing with me. Because those of us that think know what it looks like, we know what it sounds like. It's the pure confidence that there's nothing you can be threatened with, nothing anyone can do to you. This post may draw fire, pure fire, but it won't mean anything. The one's that try to deny it are only trying to convince themselves, none of you have anything to say to me.

1 comment:

Gena R. said...

“Then I'll see a one paragraph entry that says ‘censorship sucks’ with about the same grace as a drunk stumbling down the street.” I have to say, that’s a wonderful sentence. Nicely done. Anyway, I agree with the ideas you have about people sometimes being afraid to put their thoughts out in the open. I think a huge reason for people’s fear of sharing original ideas is that they worry about whether their thoughts will be able to hold up on their own. The ideas may sound good in their heads, but they don’t want to risk sending them to fend for themselves and be vulnerable to anyone’s response. Others might attack the ideas, might say they’re dumb or way off. But like you said, it’s all in the confidence. And the willingness to take a little risk.